Healthy Relationships are built on trust. But it’s difficult to trust someone when you don’t trust their heart for you. I served God long before I trusted His heart for me. The result was striving, guilt, fear, and condemnation.
Because of hurts and disappointments, I like many others, learned early that the world was not safe and that people betray trust. I projected my fears onto God. I longed for Him to love and accept me, but no matter how much I “did” for Him I still felt unlovable.
I began to trust God’s hand after seeing Him repeatedly provide for me and heal me, but I couldn’t trust His heart until the lies I believed about Him, and about who I was to Him, were replaced by truth. Some truth was revealed through personal experiences with God (I share some of these in my books), other truth came through reading the Word, counsel, books, sermons, and healing and prayer sessions.
Everyone’s journey toward healing and wholeness in Jesus looks different. I have heard testimonies where people have had a one-time revelation of God’s love and they totally trusted Him from then on. That is not my story. I didn’t learn to trust through one encounter or because of one thing. I just had to keep listening, learning, and doing the next thing God had planned for me.
My journey to discover God’s heart for me would include many personal revelations (mostly in the midst of trials), and many people from many different churches over the course of many years.
I can now honestly say that I trust God’s heart for me!
I can trust that He will love me unconditionally, even when I feel and act unlovable.
I can trust that His arms are open wide, even when mine are crossed in anger or stubbornness.
I can trust that He truly does have good plans for me because He is good and His intentions toward me are for my best.
I can trust that the boundaries He sets for me are to protect me, even when I do not understand them, and they do not feel good.
I can trust that He knows how to orchestrate opportunities for me to use the gifts He has placed in me.
I can trust Him, not just walk with me through trials, but to equip me to overcome in the midst of them.
I can trust Him to build my character and to develop the fruits of the Spirit in my life.
I can trust Him with the times and seasons of my life.
I can trust Him with my eternal destiny because of Jesus’ sacrifice on Calvary.
I can trust Him to redeem my past, bless my present, and prepare my future.
I can trust Him to comfort me in times of loss and to rejoice with me in victories.
I can trust Him to watch over me through the night and in the midst of the night seasons, and to rejoice over me with singing.
I can trust Him to teach me to learn to dance over the graves in my life, to dance with Him as my prince, and to dance on His feet as his precious daughter.
I have learned that I can trust Him in all things because I know He loves me, and that He truly does have my best interest in mind!
Today, I pray that you will be able to rest in the assurance of God’s love for you. No matter what is going on in your life, know that you can always trust Him!
May the Lord abundantly bless you!
Jeannie
“Yet in all these things we are more than conquerors through Him who loved us. For I am persuaded that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities nor powers, nor things present nor things to come, nor height nor depth, nor any other created thing, shall be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord” (Romans 8:37-39 NKJV).